Resignation doesn’t mean an end to the relation

Today was my last day at Orange Business Services and completed precisely 14months and 18days in this organization. But the camaraderie that I shared in this organization with most of them reminded me of the days at DHL Express where we had spent our time like a family.

The stint here at Orange also made me feel the same. It was as if with another family with the same touch. Will be joining a new family from Monday, don’t know how things would be there, how people around would be there, don’t know how long will I be staying in that place, but yes mentally prepared to take up the new assignment which the universe has set for me.

In Orange again I had felt as if I was an infant, with everyone being so nice and polite same as DHL or rather Aramex my first job.

I was like an infant when I had joined Aramex in this big world of corporate where so many master minds are around, climbed the ladders, but at Orange the feeling was back to the times of my adolescence as my first job.

Thank you Orange for all the love and care, if life permit will meet you again!!!   

Sometimes bad happens for good…!!

Today when the world was busy celebrating Eid someone was parting for this world.  Tears were rolling down many people’s eyes especially 2 of them. 

This was expected as doctors had given hope, but still our hearts were still praying for her to be fine, stand up and start walking, talking to us and again enjoy this glorious life. She wanted to live more, she wanted to be alive, but the only thing that she could do is, cry, cry in pain!!!

All the efforts put by her son was in vain a pure dud.

Her pain was unbearable. Eventually she couldn’t eat, sleep, drink or even talk. I remember my bhabhi sharing that she used to drink only about half tea spoon full of water in 24 hours.  She was suffering for an oral cancer. Which had started from just a pimple in her mouth, which then grew to such an extent that her checks were rotten and slowly her jaws started rottening and eventually it was difficult for her to even drink a spoon full of water.

I remember I had seen her fit and fine when we initially had been to her place but today she is no more in this world, she passed away.

Finally she is free from the imprisonment of this cruel body which troubled her for 5 yrs till now ever since she was caught with this disease Cancer.

The one whom I am mentioning is none other but my brother’s mother-in-law..!!

Only 5 days to go……….

I have a heavy breath now and counting days. No, not for anything else but this time it is for my birthday that is arriving.

Like every year this time too I tried rewinding my memory and taking a year back. My last birthday gift from my love is unforgettable, and I still feel that I hold that as a sweet memory in my heart. My tabernacle had become violent,yet marvelous and the most clandestine.

I just loved / love my birthday gift last year.

Today, I am rewinding my year right from that time onwards; my last birthday in the year 2010.

I and he had started my year together; although never expected but, it was a sudden surprise for me that this happened. But, just for a 1 day’s happiness had obliterated both of our happiness. Guess its mending now!

Left my previous job, in the month of November with 2 months prior notice. Yes, I will not deny that I did not like that place. I liked it and learned a lot but because they did not trust my guy’s capability and did partiality towards him, broke my trust in them.

Now how hard I try I cannot confide in them for anything in future, not for him and not for me too.

Later joined another organization starting with the name ‘D’..uffffff cannot explain how horrible and pitiful  I found myself during those 17 days in that organization.

Later was at home for about 1 ½ months. Had the regular routine for college.

Something exceptional happened during that juncture. I helped my brother in his business for about a month; where I could actually streamline his business and show him his books of accounts.

And finally joined the organization that I am in !!

Albeit it was a Sabbatical vacation for me, but the most painful juncture of my life; where there was no incomings but only outgoings. I had no source of income but my expenses were the same as had the regular routine of my day on, infact with additional activities.

No ATM card,  No shopping, No outing and No fun; but I feel that this one year has left an imprint in my life, rend my heart into pieces and has taught me how to stand-up even falling hundred times and also to wear a smile all the while.

Now in just another 5 days would be entering a new fresh year of my life, and this day will make me 26 yrs old. Cannot believe that time is flying like a breeze; just touching at the edge of my body and moving away; not even allowing to breath properly or even think on those lines of improvement.

There is a tremendous change but yes I am happy with it. This is making me stronger day by day. The inner strength of soul and the courage to hold up everything is becoming vital to understand and implement.

Now, where do I stand in my career life ?? And the answer that I get from my conscious is back to the starting point, from where I started almost 5 yrs ago from Aramex to DHL to ICICI Prudential  to Seaspan and now at Orange. The salary that I drew in DHL and the salary in the present organization is the same.

I was very happy in the year 2008 when I jumped thrice the salary that I drew with  Aramex; but I am asking to myself; Am I justifying my career life?? Have no answer yet, but the question has clicked in my heart.

But, have made certain resolutions for my year to come:

1)      Have enough bank balance.

2)      Study hard and clear with flying colors.

3)      Learn some more good recipes where I can cook for him.

4)      And last but not the least grow in career and reach and cross the position that I held in my pervious orgn.

Hoping for the best and I know that I can do it.

“Life gives a lot; and takes back some too. I will get; what I own.”

Indeed a MEMORABLE DAY TODAY!!!

It was something exceptional today.  First of all I rose up late say around 09:30 hour; inspite of this did not have a proper sleep. Why? Because now a day’s my mind is not stable and does a lot of wandering.  Although I don’t have anything concert to think or worry about in these recent time but still.

Later I came online to surf, the only reason for doing this was to put my mind in place so that can do something fruitful or may be have a good start for the day.  Then I thought of dressing up to go to the college, do you know something?? As everyone who knows me; knows it well that; nothing has/ have happened smoothly in my life. I dressed up about an hour before thinking that my college would be at 15:45 hrs; but my mother as she observes me every Saturday the time that  I leave the house made me realize that I and doing something different this day. For some time my mind just stopped working. Was confused!! So I phoned up my friend asking for the lecture’s timing and understood that the college will be at 14:45 hours.

Looking at time; I relaxed my mind that was in a hurry to leave for college; but as I was ready an hour before, in these leisure juncture I went through all my certificates that I had won during my academic’s and also through all my mark-sheets.

I felt touched and spent almost half an hour going through all these and saw how my graph went all through my school and college life. I felt as if the roof has fallen down and also my feet lost the ground!!

I couldn’t believe my eyes that I had scored 92% and had stood 1^st in the class at some point in time and now where do I stand?? What am I doing?? Am I justifying my studies now?? And the only answer that I received from my conscious is a ‘clear NO’.

I feel that I should stand up for myself and do something concert in these remaining 2yrs of my Master’s degree; but then how should I go about it? Have no clear roads but yes the determination is very strong and hoping for the best!

Later when I received my friend’s phone call; I left my house at 16:00hrs thinking that I will be able to make up for the college around 16:45^th hr as the distance to travel from my house to college is about half hour.

When I went to the auto stand; I couldn’t find even a single auto driver ready to drop me at the railway station; it was bizarre!! On the top of it; it started raining like cats and dogs..!! The breeze was at its swing and was blowing my hair from left to right and vice-versa. My umbrella that I was holding was shaking because of the breeze; it was the loveliest and also the most horrible juncture of my life where I could enjoy my lovely rainfall but also was late for college. Somehow managed to get an auto for station and then got stucked in the huge traffic. Well, finally reached station in about half an hour and it was already 17:00 hrs. Luckily got the train on time and later journey was pleasant.

The other surprising thing was that although it was raining heavily in Vasai there wasn’t even a drop at Mira road where my college is located.

Had to speak about a MEMORABLE MOMENT as mentioned in my earlier post; I had prepared somebody else’s memorable moment’s script. Somehow my conscious was against me; as I knew that I would be lying to my own conscious if I say that; and later at last minute changed my mind and spoke about the incident which has occurred on 11^th June 2000 at about  19:15 hrs. It was the day when I lost my father and I was the first person to witness that dark day of our family’s life……….!!!

On returning from college when I landed again in Vasai; could see that the situation is worse than the evening before. And so decided to walk down the street; had a good walk of half an hour.

While walking I had a pedestrian who was just few steps ahead of me. As you must aware that we do not have a pavement in Vasai East to walk down the street and so we take the safest mode of transport the auto rickshaw. And today unfortunately this very option was missing. After walking a distance; we found a man who was in his rabbit like white car as if waiting for us (both pedestrian) on the road to give us a lift till home.  I felt suspicious and did not get into the car; and you wouldn’t image though this man who was walking ahead of me got into the car; this white car didn’t pass through me…………………..ohh ghost!! Does this mean that the car driver was a kidnapper?? OR does it mean that he lead the person to the wrong route?? I had no gusts to turn around and check as the road ahead was lonely, scary and difficult for a lady to walk alone. I still walked down the street with full volume on my cell phone’s radio. And finally managed to reach home safely…..

This is the story from 9:30 hrs to 22:00 hrs today……………!!!

Uffffffffffffffff………………..!!!!!!!

Finally on my toes to go………….

After such a long contemplation over my thoughts again and again I couldn’t come up with anything that I can speak about; for instance thought to speak about my life but then thought it would be weird to discuss personal in the forum. Later thought to speak about my boyfriend (would be husband), then again something inside ME; stopped me in doing it so because again thought that after such a long misery now my love life is getting stabilized and it would be really bad on my part  to risk it again.

Yesterday we had our Monthly Team meeting in the office, and this time it was different ;where I belong to Maven’s group; okay the meaning of this word is quiet interesting would like to share about it. My colleague Anshuman searched this word. The meaning of this word is ‘’ One who understands everyone, based on an accumulation of knowledge, and is master in ones knowledge’’.

Okay our team had the activity of arranging the POT LUNCH which went out to be SUPERB!!

Later I took suggestion from my other colleague Muddy who told me about this below incident. I modified it and finally will speak this today…….hope to get my 5 out of 5 marks today……….Lets see……….

Although somebody else’s memorable moment but yet TODAY WILL BE MEMORABLE MOMENT FOR ME….where I will be speaking someone else’s memorable moment…………………..

Read the below………………………………

Memorable Moment

I would like to speak of an incident which occurred when I was in STD 8^th, when I along with 2 of my friends had been to Panchgani to spend summer vacation. 

In the mid of the dried meadows of grass there is a hill and we planned to go there to enjoy a bonfire.  We took our bicycles and started our journey to the hill top. When we landed there; we gathered some lofts of woods and finally were ready to lit the fire.  We were all in glorious mood of life!!

It was a breezy evening; and breeze was blowing as if this will lift us up in the sky and throw us on the ground onto our noses. But as we were in the early teenage with warm blood we ignored the signals of nature.

 While lighting the fire, accidently the match stick flew with the wild breeze that was surrounding us and had wrapped us in it; and it flew down the mountain on the dried grass that was spread and lit a small fire there.  Fright filled our tummies and without wasting any time we took our bicycle’s and drew down the stiff narrow valley in couple of seconds.

Later when we dared to turn around and see; we 3 of us were zapped to see the picturesque; it was horrifying  and bizarre as it looked like burning furnace and fire had spread like a wild horse covering the mountain in his arms….!!!

Memorable moment to be spoken at college…….confused with what to speak

Since such a long time, I am thinking what to be written.

My college professor Mr. Jose, he teaches us Effective Communication has asked us to speak for 90 secs on a memorable moment.

Well as I write a lot over here, but my memory is falling short for remembering such memorable moment in my life…Guess there are many..

1)      May be the time that I am born (my birthday) where may be I was not in my concious but yet it is a memorable moment. This reminds me of the day which is coming near.My birthday is arriving. I become so happy and delighted.

2)      Secondly I remember the day when I have won 1^st prize in elocution competition in the college when I was least expecting it. Trust me the provenance of my data for the elocution was from the newspapers, some internet article and from the text book and the topic was on Power Consumption and the Scarcity of Power Supply.

3)      Third that I remember is  the day when I got my first job, okay though it wasn’t the first job and I was selected in several companies earlier. The very first was to sell the ABN Amro Swap card machine. I went for 2 days and left it, later was trapped in the marketing job with an NGO on behalf of CRY. Well I could manage to complete only around 15 days and I left and finally I got into my first organization where I lasted for about 11 months. This journey on those initial days is memorable and though how hard I try I will not be able to forget.

4)      Then I also remember the first time I saw my boyfriend in the office. He was looking so cute and handsome. The reason to describe him as cute and handsome is because he looks so innocent and just a darling. I remember it was 22^nd Oct.

5)      Then may be the time when we first met as a couple on my last birthday.

6)      My job at Orange where I am working now, after such a long waiting for a new job since Nov 10 got this job on 18^th Jan 11.

7)      The time when my love came back from his contract this year.

8)      And also the time when he left for another contract this  April bill run.

9)      Also the day when I got the news that his notes are received from Symbosis which was an achievment for him as well as for me.

10)  And the last when I received news from Narotham Morarji that finally the study material has come for him after a long waiting of 3 months.

The list is not exhaustive but I will end up with these 10. Actually too many memorable moments but really confused which one should I speak about. And I have only 90 SECS  to do the same………………..

Life fades, memories remain (School days)

I remember my 1^st day in the school, it was 1989, June. I was admitted in Jr.Kg in Kamla high school.

My class-room was on the 3^rd floor, toward left hand side as soon as we go upstairs  the 2^nd room. You know, at times memories play tremendous role in one’s life that we either remember everything or nothing!!

 I remember my 1^st day in school when mummy had dropped me in the class,my tears were continously rolling down my cheeks as I never wanted to go to the school; I loved my house, my brothers and my cousins. I always wanted to be in between them only. On the other hand no one else other than me was crying. I know it is strange to believe but that is the fact !!!

I remember rightly I was  the last student to enter the class. My luck, the bench right in front of the class teacher Mrs. Gomes was vacant beside Deepa Parmar; to introduce her, she is my 1^st friend in school when I was 3yrs and 10 months old. Right behind our bench were twins sisters Jimmy and Jolly.

Though I don’t remember their faces, and has  blur memories, but I remember they were extremly beautiful. The only thing that differentiated them were a mole in Jimmy’s right eye.

And offcourse Vikrant Sawant the one whom I called brother, (my childhood brother, luckily still in touch, thanks to facebook) and Nishapal. Soon after around few months she became my best friend.

Couldn’t forget my first day at school where I was full in  tears and like the most pampered child was insisting my mother to be beside me and she made an excuse to go to the washroom and then vanished.!!

My teacher within the 1^st week of the school made me the class representative which we used to call as the monitor of the class. Memories they play such an amazing role in one’s life !! Isn’t it ??

I cannot forget my school, my teachers and even my class-mates and friends.

Nishapal passed away due to cancer when we were in the 1st standard and Mrs. Rekha Gandhi was our class teacher.

I had lost interest in making friends, but yes, studies used to be my top most priority. My teachers made me the class representatives all through my school and college (except 8^th till 10^th std).

Speeches, elocution, poem recitation, singing….etc..etc…so many activties I was indulged in, but never had even dropped my precentage.

Later, hit the bad phase of my life, during 8^th std, we shifted to Vasai, may be because of distance from school, or the family conditions, dropped in studies, lost my father 11yrs before on 11^th June,when my school was about to re-open and was about to enter the 10^th std. It was that utmost days for me to deal with! But as it is rightly said; “nothing is permanent in life” and so are the difficulties.

I fought back the difficulties and again topped my class during std 12^th and left school with flying colors.

Mrs. Rekha Shahani teacher (now the principal of the school) had helped me a lot during my school days; though it be school fees, school uniform or clothes.!! I am thankful to her and even other teachers namely; Rama Rajendran, Prakash Sir, Mrs. Varsha Parwani, Mrs.Albina…. and everyone else who supported.

Albiet, how much ever I write; it will still be less and not sufficient to narrate my school days and describe my school. So here I bid adieu and conclude that school days were the best days of my life, and I would treasure it for as long as I am alive…!!!!