Resignation doesn’t mean an end to the relation

Today was my last day at Orange Business Services and completed precisely 14months and 18days in this organization. But the camaraderie that I shared in this organization with most of them reminded me of the days at DHL Express where we had spent our time like a family.

The stint here at Orange also made me feel the same. It was as if with another family with the same touch. Will be joining a new family from Monday, don’t know how things would be there, how people around would be there, don’t know how long will I be staying in that place, but yes mentally prepared to take up the new assignment which the universe has set for me.

In Orange again I had felt as if I was an infant, with everyone being so nice and polite same as DHL or rather Aramex my first job.

I was like an infant when I had joined Aramex in this big world of corporate where so many master minds are around, climbed the ladders, but at Orange the feeling was back to the times of my adolescence as my first job.

Thank you Orange for all the love and care, if life permit will meet you again!!!   

Only 5 days to go……….

I have a heavy breath now and counting days. No, not for anything else but this time it is for my birthday that is arriving.

Like every year this time too I tried rewinding my memory and taking a year back. My last birthday gift from my love is unforgettable, and I still feel that I hold that as a sweet memory in my heart. My tabernacle had become violent,yet marvelous and the most clandestine.

I just loved / love my birthday gift last year.

Today, I am rewinding my year right from that time onwards; my last birthday in the year 2010.

I and he had started my year together; although never expected but, it was a sudden surprise for me that this happened. But, just for a 1 day’s happiness had obliterated both of our happiness. Guess its mending now!

Left my previous job, in the month of November with 2 months prior notice. Yes, I will not deny that I did not like that place. I liked it and learned a lot but because they did not trust my guy’s capability and did partiality towards him, broke my trust in them.

Now how hard I try I cannot confide in them for anything in future, not for him and not for me too.

Later joined another organization starting with the name ‘D’..uffffff cannot explain how horrible and pitiful  I found myself during those 17 days in that organization.

Later was at home for about 1 ½ months. Had the regular routine for college.

Something exceptional happened during that juncture. I helped my brother in his business for about a month; where I could actually streamline his business and show him his books of accounts.

And finally joined the organization that I am in !!

Albeit it was a Sabbatical vacation for me, but the most painful juncture of my life; where there was no incomings but only outgoings. I had no source of income but my expenses were the same as had the regular routine of my day on, infact with additional activities.

No ATM card,  No shopping, No outing and No fun; but I feel that this one year has left an imprint in my life, rend my heart into pieces and has taught me how to stand-up even falling hundred times and also to wear a smile all the while.

Now in just another 5 days would be entering a new fresh year of my life, and this day will make me 26 yrs old. Cannot believe that time is flying like a breeze; just touching at the edge of my body and moving away; not even allowing to breath properly or even think on those lines of improvement.

There is a tremendous change but yes I am happy with it. This is making me stronger day by day. The inner strength of soul and the courage to hold up everything is becoming vital to understand and implement.

Now, where do I stand in my career life ?? And the answer that I get from my conscious is back to the starting point, from where I started almost 5 yrs ago from Aramex to DHL to ICICI Prudential  to Seaspan and now at Orange. The salary that I drew in DHL and the salary in the present organization is the same.

I was very happy in the year 2008 when I jumped thrice the salary that I drew with  Aramex; but I am asking to myself; Am I justifying my career life?? Have no answer yet, but the question has clicked in my heart.

But, have made certain resolutions for my year to come:

1)      Have enough bank balance.

2)      Study hard and clear with flying colors.

3)      Learn some more good recipes where I can cook for him.

4)      And last but not the least grow in career and reach and cross the position that I held in my pervious orgn.

Hoping for the best and I know that I can do it.

“Life gives a lot; and takes back some too. I will get; what I own.”

Plans, plans and plans…………..

Invariably every one of us makes plans and also strives to execute it. Although it is an individual, a social group, a formal group, a local authority and on the macro level the Government’s plan. But, the question that arises in my mind occasionally is; is it implied or executed in real and not just in an imagination??

 I have come up with these is not to criticize anyone of us (self included) but to share with you certain plans which I have witnessed but never implemented or executed.

To name few of my personal plans;

1)      My further studies, although started but still many plans are in pipeline.

2)      Huge bank balance so that I can have a free mind rest of my life.

3)       My marriage.

4)      Reconciliation with my Would-be in-laws.

Well don’t want to emphasize more on those thin lines of my life, but would want to discuss about the most venerable plan which has never been executed so far as per my knowledge.

OUR COLLEGE PICNIC…..ooppss many call it as College outing !!!!

It’s been exact one year of our college and we have stepped on to the 2^nd year of our degree namely 3^rd Semester. And all these while there have been a lot of plans which has come up.

I remember we were planning to go for a night-out New Year Day party. We assembled as a huge flock just outside our college cornering at entrance gate, all decided and enthusiast, ardently absorbed with lot of plans and ideas and in the verge of getting up and entering the city of pleasure – The nightout Party on 31^st Dec. Well, lot of discussions were on and the place was about to be decided. But really am clueless of the outcome of it.

Yes, you guessed it right!!! Nothing, absolutely nothing after that juncture, everyone got so busy in their daily schedule of life that no one had the time to invest and devout for the group that is long waiting for something such. The bonding is required, definitely required.

We are all working professional who come together only on weekends and so many must be left out like loose ends of a woolen ball, who really needs to be tied back and should be made to feel as one, one family.

Though everyone was relying on another to form a concert plan, nothing came up at the end of it.

This isn’t it, there were couple of plans following suit and all drained out as time flew.

Nevertheless this is not the end, but it gives us a lesson, that though how big the group be or how small the plan be. Each one of us should shoulder responsibility equally to get the final conclusion.

If individual plans then to grade the most prioritize once and subsequently others should follow.

In any case I love planning…………….because ultimately it leaves me with a hope of looking forward for the next day to come……….!!!!!!!!!

Please note : The above is dedicated to Mihir Iyer, who inspired me in writing this article. 

Still something is missing……

I have cleared my second semester exam of MHRDM and will be approaching to the third semester. Till the time I had not been admitted in this master course I was eager to go ahead with this as had high expectation. But since I am in  the midway of the course, I am still not satisfied. I really don’t know what do I want to do ahead and where is my destination.

I feel something is missing, my heart owes for something else and I am moving in some other direction. But why such emptiness and why such eagerness to go ahead???

The field that I want to enter is day-by-day far from my reach; and my breath is becoming heavy to achieve that. Although this is an exciting juncture for me and many good things are expected to be ahead, my mind and soul still craving for something that is missing, missing in me…

But why such ? Maybe because I had no one to guide me when I was young, or maybe my flocks must have guided me but I was ignorant and innocent and didn’t have the capacity to understand the dept of the knowledge world. My mind was not that matured enough to understand the teachings of the elderly cronies around or maybe no one attempted to guide me…..or something such….!!!

But what should be done now? And how do I move in the direction that my heart would be contend and would be willing to move further. I know where do I want to go, but roads are blocked or rather too away. It feels that I am at one end of world and my destination at the other end with a large ocean in between; with no boat of hope remaining to sail me through my way…

Am I being  too philosophical ?? No, not at all ….I am very emotional today and really do not know why such when I have actually cleared my second semester and moving ahead with the degree of MHRDM………..!!!!