Rain O my love, please come before you leave

I wish the sky come down
I wish for a hearty laughing sound
I wish for the sun up high
To calm down, to calm down..

Like an army on the border
Who fight for no cause
And loose or win the fight
With self-less intentions at heart.

I wish for the thunder
To come and play the sound
And give us the aspiration;
teaching us how to keep the life bounce.


Please come o ye my love
The world is awaiting for you
Come down now and shower
On every creature which are now few...

Come down O love of the earth
We are all waiting for you
Like every year you shower love
Come shower again few

The time is nearing for you to go
And you did not even show
Your charmastic smile and blessings
Which God had bestowed

The time is nearing for you to go
Now atleast come and show
We are waiting for you
Like a plant in a seed
For us to flourish by your touch

We need you desperately
Everytime you do this to us
This time please come o ye
We are waiting for you..!!!

Its My 27th Birthday Today

27 years spent on this planet being 'ME'. It is a strange feeling that I feel I am born just yesterday.

Yesterday was the day when many things came in open, it felt as if one part of the movie is finished, the night was an intermission period; and now post interval's movie is on.

It took such a long time for THIS to come up; in this flow of life I felt that may be those pre-conceived notion is wiped off; but no, I was wrong.

It still continues to be the same, but finally it all came up.

Today, its a new start of my 28th year; but in real, it is a new start of my life.

Few things that I have understood after yesterday :-

1) I am what I am.

2) I was, I am and shall always be truthful.

3) Nothing is this world is greater than honesty/ Truth after God.

4) Ever coin has 2 sides, both are right, and both has a truth.

5) One man's poison is other man's food.

6) No one will stand will you, but your mother; as she has given you birth and she knows the pain what you go through

You might fail yourself, your spouse might fail to understand the pain behind your silence, but your mother does understands.

7) Sometimes I expect a lot from this universe and I do not understand that everything has a limit.

　

I ask this day; that may God give me what I deserve and not what I desire, because our desires might fool us, and may be fake, but what I deserve is what God wants for me.

　

Few resolutions for the year that I have made and expects to fulfil before I complete this 28th year:-

1) Have a huge bank balance (this is carried forward from last year as it is still to be fulfilled).

2) Complete my master's.

3) Get some extra degree in life.

4) Learn some more yoga to control myself, my anger, my anxiety and my pain.

5) Get a promotion and a salary hike.

6) Buy a new big house.

7) Buy a new car for myself.

　

You must be wondering this year's resolution is all about career and nothing about personal; yes you are right in observing.

I dont aspire to achieve anything in personal life atleast now, because I dont know what should happen in personal life.

For now I dont see any roads opening, its all dead ends.

As I said yesterday I just dashed to a dead end of the road and there came the interval of the story of my life; for sometime I felt its the end but may be it is just a bend,

but fortunately it is still continuing.........lets see how long it continue's....

That is how a new start of my new life.......

What a Birthday gift..

Long awaited misery
Long awaited tragedy
Like an angle
Which has a history...
It ended and bended
And took all the sides and degree's
And finally lasted in an angle which has no history
The line in it is lost
The moisture and the thirst
Like a hope that is lost
With his horifying tragedy
Wanted him to stand with me
Never did I receive
It ended with a birthday gift
That never did I expect
Never, did I expect
Such a miserable ending
I got,
What a Birthday gift..
Never ever will I forget
Never ever will I commit this mistake
Never ever will I ever trust
For ending with such a birthday gift..

3 days to go.......

Well well well, just 3 days remaining for my 27th year to finish and I would be heading to my new year and I consider it to be a new life.....

A new day is arriving
With a new life
Have a lot in store
For me to cherish and try

A new day with a new beginning
A beginning with fun and game
With lots to share
With lots to gain

Ending 27th year with tears rolling down
No real achievement with no stories so sound
But expecting my years to come
With energy and love

I welcome my 28th year with a WARM DELIGHT..!!!!

Bhagwat Gita Seminar by Iskon's

Recently I had attended Bhagwat Gita seminar conducted by Iskon's and the speaker who came was just too good.
I was supposed to be attending for 4 days but couldnt manage to go all days.
But in the first day small thing that I could understand from the seminar is;
That we now a days are so busy that we hardly find time for God and run behind stuff that are from this mortal work.
Our body is mortal but our soul is immortal, we should do good things all the time.
Also there are 7 miseries that no one can escape on of those I couldnt remember,
those are catagorized into 2:-
Birth
Death
Disease
Old Age
And the second catagory is:
Our own mind and heart
Natural Calamities

We are all in Bhav-sagar - The meaning is Bhav is Misery and greed and Sagar is Ocean.
To live a perfect life as God desires we should be truthful and honest to one's soul and follow his path.
Below were the versus that he had presented on his PPT which I really liked it.
Putting it down here so that everyone can read.

"What is this Life full of care??
We have no time to stand and stare
No time to stand beneath the boughs
And stare as long as sheeps and cows".
The paradox of our time in history
is that we have taller buildings,
but shorter tempers;
Wider freeways,but narrower viewpoints,
We spend more but have less
We buy more but enjoy less,
Bigger houses but smaller families.
More convienence, but less time
We have more degrees but less sense
More knowledge but less judgement.

First day of Birthday month – August

I started my day with full hope and excitement; had worn my best top, which is pink in color with different color flowers on it, sleeveless and looks like as if a gown.

As this is my birthday month and it is my normal tendency to dress up well, started with this…!!!

Came to the office, and was too excited as I knew today evening will be meeting HIM.

Had to prepare about 3 big reports during the day and managed to finish them all.

I surprisingly received a compliment from one of my colleague for my work. Wow……it feels so good to receive some compliment for all the hard work that you do!!! I am been receiving compliments for the work that I perform in my new office where I am working now, it really raises my moral and I get all the courage to perform even better than yesterday.

Met him in the evening, and after almost a month of asking from him got it today evening. This makes me so happy and content only he understands.

Returned home late late in the night when the entire street is lonely and everyone was fast asleep.

Don’t know why but was repeating this very song the entire day…..sung by Mohammed Rafi and Lata Mangeshkar, picturised on Rajesh Khanna & Sharmila Tagore in the movie Aradhana.

"Bago me Bahar hai, Kaliyo me Nikhar hai…………tum ko mujhse pyaar hai…………nana na na nana"

We have planned to meet even tomorrow, let’s see how it works out.

And now sleeping hoping for a better tomorrow.

Last 30 days for 27yrs

Time passes so soon and I guess will never return. My growing age, subsiding youthfulness and charm.

This Invaded angry in me; Restlessness and illusion of being successful is keeping my angry invade at a pace that is very harmful.

I should not allow this to win over my conscious and control myself.

It is been 11 months since I had made my resolution for this year, and when I look back and contemplate on it; I can see that I have achieved some of the resolution for my year that is gone after a lot of hard work or may be destiny.

Let me just give a glance on the resolutions:

1) Have enough bank balance. –

Not fulfilled.

2) Study hard and clear with flying colors. –

Somewhat managed too with some good percentage.

3) Learn some more good recipes where I can cook for him. –

Achieved a little, but a long way to go.

4) And last but not the least grow in career and reach and cross the position that I held in my pervious orgn. –

This resolution I had made on my birthday and I believe I have achieved most of them; I should be excited for it; but still I am not, why??? May be because I had made a lot of sacrifices personally to get all these. Is it justified to get something on the cost of something else?

I really don’t know, want someone to tell me, advice me, want to know the ramification such actions.

Anyway the time has come to make new resolutions, shall be thinking over it and put it up for the new and fresh year to come…………..

Yes achieved, in terms of monetary as well as position.

SHADOW

It was dark at night; only few dogs ahead and some gittering sounds of the Nightingale.
I suddenly realised someone beside me, tall, dark and huge right beside me.
I was scared. To avoid dashing to this tall and dark hooded figure I attempted to get aside; but all my struggle were in vain.
I couldnt escape from this hooded figure. As I was walking ahead this figure was walking beside me.
When I turned around it also turned around with me and went right behind me, this time it turned very small but dark hooded figure.
As I walking and crossing that big road ahead, the shinning sun my long lost friend started appearing and as the sun was appearing this hooded figure started lightning and finially vanished.
Then I realised it was nothing but my own figure.....my own image.........MY SHADOW.

I will be there for you - part 2

Like how the story bend and then mend
Our life is all about this beautiful trend...

I will be there in your dreams
fulfiling your wishes
I will be there with my arms
for you to be held

I will be there in your life
like a brickwall strong tall
I will be there in your aspirations
Be there to make you strong

I will be there for you to feel proud
I will be there from dawn till the day falls out

I will be everywhere
for you to find
Though it be a heaven or be the earthly divine

I will be there for you to sing loud

Call me from your heart
For you to find
I will be there for you, if you don't mind...

A little odd and even

Yesterday while returning from office, I didn't take the usual train as I board which starts from Andheri station but took another train which runs right from Churchgate station.
I  rushed to the crowded train as I didn't wanted to miss this, it was unusually crowded, I was hanging right outside the train. Only half of my feet could take support of the foot board while I was holding the middle rod, tight with both my hands.
A lady was just ahead of me who was equally hanging as me. Even her entire body weight was on my hands, which was making it difficult for me to hold, the fear of leaving this earthly body, I  was holding the rod and took the grep too strongly as I could.
The train was rushing in its ultimate speed and I was swinging along with the train.

The hanging bag which I was carrying on my right shoulder was hanging as if a coconut on the tree which was waiting for the storm to come to fall down; the rushing train on the opposite track was making it all the more easier to achieve its motive.

I could not believe that it was taking such a long time for Borivali station to come. Both my arms were paining horribly but leaving me with no excuse but to carry body weight of both of us.

Alas the Borivali station came after a long struggle of 14 minutes, this was the time I realised why my life is so important. This is the only life that we get and we should live it to the fullest not allowing the negative thought of giving away with life.

I really don't know whether to become happy with the experience which was closer to death or to be sad that I had to face such a turmoil. But whatever the odds and even it may be I learned a new thing in life.

Destiny – The final journey

Ideally life seems so perfect, everything is falling in place as I had desired. But, somehow I feel something is incomplete; something I am leaving behind. Is it that every individual feels the same when they move ahead in life to meet their expected destiny or is it that my destiny is something else that I cannot even figure out at this juncture?

By the Grace of God all the possible problems are solving, getting all that I had ever desired till date, but then why this one mystery is still unsolved? I want to know and find out who this demon is.

May be that is my destiny; or maybe I still have a long way to reach my destiny. What so ever it may be I will walk along till the end…………………….