Saturday, 6 October 2012

A New-little member in my family (My life)

Here I am to share about my new-family member. Today is the 17th day of my baby and in these 17 days he should us 17 months. He was born on 20th September morning around 9:24 am, in this short span of time he showed us the world, and made our dream come true.

Feel  like sharing what all he did in these days.

First day: - Like the normal baby he behaved, and opened his eyes. We all were so excited to see his open eyes, the colour of his eyes are jet-black, well shaped like a pea-cock, reddish fair colour and a slick structure. He was looking replica of my late father. The juncture I saw his face I was zapped, amazed and welcomed my father in the house.

Second day:- I did not see him on the second day, but understood that the doctor was supposed to be discharging; bhabhi and baby both were all ready to come home. I started calling him with the name 'Nanu' which means 'Small'.

Third day:- He was bought home. This day onwards he started applying force to his body to push himself upwards. This was just amazing to see. Generally small babies try this act only when they are a month old and above. 

This day was the 5th day of Ganapati Visarjan and as our house is road touched there was tremendous noise, but Nanu didn't react and still had peaceful sleep.

Fourth day:- As this was Sunday, all the relatives and my friends had come home. In such a lovely event, I had made Veg-Biryani and mummy made chicken for all. Can you believe Nanu had all the patience in the world to be calm and had a peaceful sleep even when everyone was around him and was trying to play with him.

Fifth day: From this day onwards he started biting his mummy's nipples while breast-feeding. When bhabhi told about this we all were too surprised to know  and delayed this conversation for obvious.

Sixth day:- Can you believe from this night onwards he started sleeping on one side. He started drinking milk turning towards one-side. Babies generally do this after 3th month but my baby started doing it from 6th day onwards. And his biting nipples continued since a day before.

Seventh day :- This day we noticed that baby got jaundice, his eyes turned yellow and his body pale. We all were too afraid. Got to know from friends that now-a-days its common for infants to get jaundice and should be taken out early morning to give sun-rays. 

Eight day:- He was taken to the doctor and doctor advised for a blood test, doctor discovered that his jaundice level is 18 points  whereas the normal level is 15 points. It was pretty serious, he was admitted immediately and was kept in the hospital for another 3 days.

When his blood was taken doctors couldn't find his nerves and they were trying to find one. They were poking niddles in the tiny little hands and finally managed to find.

Ninth day: - He was in the hospital and advised to be kept without any clothes in the incubator. My Nanu understood this and he became smarter than before.

His eyes were covered so that the light should not disturb his eyes and create any problem. He learned how to remove the eyes-cover. He also used to understood when stepped into the room.

After a long struggle, doctors instead of putting an eyes-cover they made a modified eyes-cover and played tricks with Nanu, can you believe doctor had to actually give a replacement. He took cotton stretched it wrapped it with a cotton band and sticked it on the sides with a cello-tape so that even though how hard he try he will not be able to remove it at least for that time. But doctors were not sure whether he would be fooled with this or will have a way out of this as well.

One thing that was pretty surprising was, when beautiful nurses used to carry him, he  used to be very quiet and so pleasing that couldn't make out that this tiny child can play any mischief.

Tenth day:- He was in the hospital and continued the same behaviour. But by the grace of God his health became normal and he was bought home.

Eleventh day: - He ensured that the nipples were wounded.

Twelfth day: - Can you believe when mummy checked bhabhi's nipples this day, she was too surprised to see that the nipples were bleeding and had puss. 
When bhabhi informed his doctor, doctor couldn't believe that a small baby who is just 12 days old can ever do such thing.

Thirteen day: - Bhabhi finally went to the local-family doctor to take medication.
Can you believe doctor's first question. Well, you would be surprised to know. The very first question was "How many years old is the baby?" Bhabhi couldn't believe this, but still ignoring the same question she asked the doctor to repeat the question, doctor repeated the same question.

This time bhabhi told the doctor that he is just 12 days and today is the 13th day.
Doctor couldn't believe this and commented saying that children of about 5-6 months can do these. Well, she gave medicines and asked to stop breast-feeding for 3 day as this could pass on infection to the baby.

From this day onwards we started feeding him through feeding-bottle. Without a-do he started sucking milk so efficiently that no one could make out that a baby on 13th day can do so.

Fourteen day:- Baby started turning on one-side as well as pushing upwards as well as drinking milk from a feeding-bottle. This day we noticed his style of passing urine and stool. 

Can you believe this little life, takes so much pleasure in passing motion. He remains stand-still, like a very innocent child and a sweet cute look when passing motion. We observed him to be very quiet this evening and when gave him milk to drink he refused by not sucking and a very searching eyes; later we observed that he is passing stool, he didn't pass stool from past 3 days and doctor's had said that it was normal for a baby.

Ufff in these 14 days he showed us 14 months of time.

Fifteen day: - He started showing improvement in his health as bhai and bhabhi started showing him early morning sun-rays. From this day onwards I personally observed that his looks started changing, now he has a sharp features, a straight nose, reddish-fair colour, slick structure and a very very sweet voice.

Sixteen day: - The colour of his eyes started turning white, and we were feeling relaxed noticing that his health is improving.
Something I noticed during these days, he passes a lawn-green colour stool. And one thing really amazing I learned from mummy is that when children keep looking at a colour they pass the same colour stool. Our house is surrounded with green long trees and therefore as he keeps looking out of the window on the green, well leafed, long trees.

He enjoys the twittering sound of the birds outside the window. He has a very very cute smile which he gives only while sleeping.

This day I clicked his first picture, hiding from mummy as she is very strict against clicking pictures of him till his baptism. Anyway I clicked his picture and also made a small video of him.

Showed this to mummy  she was initially angry but loved when she saw Nanu's million dollar smile in the video which is captured.

Today is the 17th day and this day I got the chance to change his clothes and wipe his small cute tiny bump when he passed stool.

Thats about my Little Nanu, our new family member and OUR LIFE.

Shall surely put up his every new developments and if Mummy permits his pics too.




Wednesday, 19 September 2012

A tender girl



I met a tender girl in the present office that I am working for past 5 months. When I

saw her for the first time, felt as if I had seen her before, she is not as beatiful

as an acctress but down to earth and has a very pleasant personality.

She is different than other girls that I have come across; when I board in the bus I

sometimes sit beside her and get to know about her insites, her feelings, her views.

Although I dont agree to all, but its always good to know her.

I sometimes feel she over-estimates the world and many a times underestimates

herself. All these are unknown to her, difficult even to explain her. She has an

inner beauty of her soul which I believe very few observes or notices.

Sometimes I feel her soul shouts out with pain to the core, to let people around her

know what she wants, how she wants and rather the perfect way to perfection; but all

in vain !!

Her personality I find has a mixture of emotions, and that mixture is unknown !!

I wish she gets the best and understands herself before it is too late.

Monday, 17 September 2012

Restless finding Flaws in my personality


I wonder what will happen ahead. Just to restless now; it feels as if the destination is right at the reach of my hand but I am not able to touch it. I don't know why things are not ratified yet; nor on the personal side neither on the professional aspect.

Awaiting, just awaiting for the fortune wheel to go around and turn for me this time; but how? How and why would it go for me? What am I doing so great that things would turn around only for me??

Well the question has many answers but no answer at all...!! Difficult to understand right? hmm-mm

I am presently reading a book named '92 tricks for a good communication'; when I had picked up this book from the bookstore, I was wondering whether am I really so bad that I need now tricks to open a conversation; or rather continue a conversation!!! But trust me just by turning few pages of this book, I have a better understanding of my flaws now, I cannot imagine what would happen when I complete reading this book.

I understand one thing now is; that I sound very friendly, I am rather, over-friendly most of the times when I am in a conversation, which in REAL I am not; but with my quick smile and bubbly nature,  I am misinterpreted.

Alright, this is just the first thing that I have learned from this book. I recommend all to read or rather refer this book at-least once !!!

Besides, my restlessness started ever since then; I am feeling so bad that things are not received at face-value, rather perceived at what others perceives about you as an Individual.

A person's personality is reflected with the way the person moves, talks, his/her demeanor and lot other than the spoken words.

I am restless; too restless after reading this. Hopefully I would work over my personality and observe for a period of time.

Wednesday, 29 August 2012

Justice OR Injustice

I wonder what is the meaning of Justice and Injustice; what is the actual meaning of it.

Sometimes I feel that there is nothing wrong or nothing right in the world under the shelter of heaven.

I was so highly disappointed a day before when I got to know about the incident of a woman been killed in the Ladies Special train running from churchgate to Virar; in the evening by other women commuters on 14-Aug-2012 in the luggage compartment.
This is rediculous indeed!!!!

It is so higly dangerous to do anything now a days; life has become so uncertain, that even a portion of our time cannot be guranteed.

But then I wonder what must be going on in those women's mind? Why have they done somethings like this.

Taking someone's life is the greatest sin on this planet; as we as an individual do not have the rights to take away the gift of life from anybody.

Our life is so pure, so magnetic, and so aromatic.
Is it a Just to take away someone's life?

As I wrote on my birthday that I understood one thing about life; that there is no wrong or no right, its all about how we perceive somethings to be,

I repeat Is it a Just to take away someone's life???

If you say 'no' then the synonyms is The terrorist's story, then why do we demand to hang the terrorist till death?

I fail to understand the actual meaning of Justice and Injustice and when to apply that.

Can anyone please explain me?

Sullen Life

What a life which is full of tears
What a life with songs so weird
What a life with hull and heek
What a life with slums and sleek

Sometimes its about the boughs
Sometimes its all chaos
Sometimes a lot of love
Sometimes all abhor

It is a Sullen Life..

It pains and prick at heart
Gives lots of affliction
This Sullen life
Is all about fiction

Circumstances may change
But not the consequence
This is what a sullen life
Which is based on pre-possession

All I ask and forseek
Is for a resolution
To all the fake possiblities
And all the preposition.

A SULLEN LIFE..........

Tuesday, 28 August 2012

Rain O my love, please come before you leave

I wish the sky come down
I wish for a hearty laughing sound
I wish for the sun up high
To calm down, to calm down..


Like an army on the border
Who fight for no cause
And loose or win the fight
With self-less intentions at heart.


I wish for the thunder
To come and play the sound
And give us the aspiration;
teaching us how to keep the life bounce.



Please come o ye my love
The world is awaiting for you
Come down now and shower
On every creature which are now few...


Come down O love of the earth
We are all waiting for you
Like every year you shower love
Come shower again few


The time is nearing for you to go
And you did not even show
Your charmastic smile and blessings
Which God had bestowed


The time is nearing for you to go
Now atleast come and show
We are waiting for you
Like a plant in a seed
For us to flourish by your touch


We need you desperately
Everytime you do this to us
This time please come o ye
We are waiting for you..!!!

Thursday, 23 August 2012

Its My 27th Birthday Today


27 years spent on this planet being 'ME'. It is a strange feeling that I feel I am born just yesterday.
Yesterday was the day when many things came in open, it felt as if one part of the movie is finished, the night was an intermission period; and now post interval's movie is on.
It took such a long time for THIS to come up; in this flow of life I felt that may be those pre-conceived notion is wiped off; but no, I was wrong.
It still continues to be the same, but finally it all came up.
Today, its a new start of my 28th year; but in real, it is a new start of my life.
Few things that I have understood after yesterday :-
1) I am what I am.
2) I was, I am and shall always be truthful.
3) Nothing is this world is greater than honesty/ Truth after God.
4) Ever coin has 2 sides, both are right, and both has a truth.
5) One man's poison is other man's food.
6) No one will stand will you, but your mother; as she has given you birth and she knows the pain what you go through
You might fail yourself, your spouse might fail to understand the pain behind your silence, but your mother does understands.
7) Sometimes I expect a lot from this universe and I do not understand that everything has a limit.
 
I ask this day; that may God give me what I deserve and not what I desire, because our desires might fool us, and may be fake, but what I deserve is what God wants for me.
 
Few resolutions for the year that I have made and expects to fulfil before I complete this 28th year:-
1) Have a huge bank balance (this is carried forward from last year as it is still to be fulfilled).
2) Complete my master's.
3) Get some extra degree in life.
4) Learn some more yoga to control myself, my anger, my anxiety and my pain.
5) Get a promotion and a salary hike.
6) Buy a new big house.
7) Buy a new car for myself.
 
You must be wondering this year's resolution is all about career and nothing about personal; yes you are right in observing.
I dont aspire to achieve anything in personal life atleast now, because I dont know what should happen in personal life.
For now I dont see any roads opening, its all dead ends.
As I said yesterday I just dashed to a dead end of the road and there came the interval of the story of my life; for sometime I felt its the end but may be it is just a bend,
but fortunately it is still continuing.........lets see how long it continue's....
That is how a new start of my new life.......

Wednesday, 22 August 2012

What a Birthday gift..

Long awaited misery
Long awaited tragedy
Like an angle
Which has a history...
It ended and bended
And took all the sides and degree's
And finally lasted in an angle which has no history
The line in it is lost
The moisture and the thirst
Like a hope that is lost
With his horifying tragedy
Wanted him to stand with me
Never did I receive
It ended with a birthday gift
That never did I expect
Never, did I expect
Such a miserable ending
I got,
What a Birthday gift..
Never ever will I forget
Never ever will I commit this mistake
Never ever will I ever trust
For ending with such a birthday gift..

Sunday, 19 August 2012

3 days to go.......

Well well well, just 3 days remaining for my 27th year to finish and I would be heading to my new year and I consider it to be a new life.....

A new day is arriving
With a new life
Have a lot in store
For me to cherish and try

A new day with a new beginning
A beginning with fun and game
With lots to share
With lots to gain

Ending 27th year with tears rolling down
No real achievement with no stories so sound
But expecting my years to come
With energy and love

I welcome my 28th year with a WARM DELIGHT..!!!!

Thursday, 16 August 2012

Bhagwat Gita Seminar by Iskon's


Recently I had attended Bhagwat Gita seminar conducted by Iskon's and the speaker who came was just too good.
I was supposed to be attending for 4 days but couldnt manage to go all days.
But in the first day small thing that I could understand from the seminar is;
That we now a days are so busy that we hardly find time for God and run behind stuff that are from this mortal work.
Our body is mortal but our soul is immortal, we should do good things all the time.

Also there are 7 miseries that no one can escape on of those I couldnt remember,
those are catagorized into 2:-

Birth
Death
Disease
Old Age

And the second catagory is:
Our own mind and heart
Natural Calamities


We are all in Bhav-sagar - The meaning is Bhav is Misery and greed and Sagar is Ocean.
To live a perfect life as God desires we should be truthful and honest to one's soul and follow his path.
Below were the versus that he had presented on his PPT which I really liked it.
Putting it down here so that everyone can read.


"What is this Life full of care??
We have no time to stand and stare
No time to stand beneath the boughs
And stare as long as sheeps and cows".

The paradox of our time in history
is that we have taller buildings,
but shorter tempers;

Wider freeways,but narrower viewpoints,
We spend more but have less
We buy more but enjoy less,
Bigger houses but smaller families.

More convienence, but less time
We have more degrees but less sense
More knowledge but less judgement.

Friday, 3 August 2012

First day of Birthday month – August

I started my day with full hope and excitement; had worn my best top, which is pink in color with different color flowers on it, sleeveless and looks like as if a gown.
As this is my birthday month and it is my normal tendency to dress up well, started with this…!!!
Came to the office, and was too excited as I knew today evening will be meeting HIM.
Had to prepare about 3 big reports during the day and managed to finish them all.
I surprisingly received a compliment from one of my colleague for my work. Wow……it feels so good to receive some compliment for all the hard work that you do!!! I am been receiving compliments for the work that I perform in my new office where I am working now, it really raises my moral and I get all the courage to perform even better than yesterday.
Met him in the evening, and after almost a month of asking from him got it today evening. This makes me so happy and content only he understands.
Returned home late late in the night when the entire street is lonely and everyone was fast asleep.
Don’t know why but was repeating this very song the entire day…..sung by Mohammed Rafi and Lata Mangeshkar, picturised on Rajesh Khanna & Sharmila Tagore in the movie Aradhana.
"Bago me Bahar hai, Kaliyo me Nikhar hai…………tum ko mujhse pyaar hai…………nana na na nana"
We have planned to meet even tomorrow, let’s see how it works out.
And now sleeping hoping for a better tomorrow.

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