Incomplete thoughts

My heart is very heavy past few days. It seems something is going away from me. But what is it?

Possibly thoughts that are gushing in my mind could be wrong, invalid and void; but I am suspicious.

I really don’t know if this time my thoughts are right or my intuition.

It is always the case that my thoughts, the negative thoughts are always wrong and my intuition finally wins the battle. This has happened several times. In recent past my mind has always played a game between my conscious and sub-conscious, thoughts and feelings that are buried, and have buried that long back when I wanted to be something and became something else.

There is always a battle in me, but why these things arise and why do I have to face these circumstances so often and as I said in recent past these has become a part of my life’s circle.

I want relief; I want to be out of all these, I want to be a free bird again, I want to live my life.

I have these incomplete thoughts and still finding an answer; and I believe one day I shall find it.

Rays-

The rays that hit the ground;
Gives energy and delight,
Seeds sprout;
Give lives;
To millions who uprise!
But then instead of being grateful
We sit and greed and resent
The Rays still fall upon;
forgiving all pains!
These Rays I long await for
As dusk envelops the earth
Leaving with another hope at heart
I sleep with great delight!
Morning, evening and dusk
It is a vivid cycle
But Rays are all I want
For all my days of Life!

Saturday-a whole day at home

Today, I was the entire day at home; not because I didn’t want to move out of the house. I had to go to the college but unfortunately yesterday while cleaning the house my right ankle got twisted and got a sprain there.
For initial few hours, I could walk with little pain; I had assumed that there is nothing wrong to worry about. However, later in the evening swelling took the charge of my ankle, and now it is dark green.
The size of my feet is double than the normal size that I have. It’s paining terribly. I had to go to the college, submit my assignment (although not completed yet) meet people, eat some junk food out; but all  I am doing is reading some books, doing household work and right now in front of the monitor trying to search something online!
I feel that everything happens for a purpose in our lives. The fatigue of the bill run is still to go; It may be because since the time bill run is over, I am working from morning till night at home. Okay I did not mention the reason for taking off, the neck of our family; my mother is unwell since Wednesday, due to fever and ear infection and the pain is at this moment too much to bear. I wish and pray that she becomes alright soon and so will I be fine.
For now I shall be preparing for the assignment to be submitted in college.

After a long time

You must be wondering why I am writing after such a big break. On the other hand, rather why I did not write for such a long time; the answer is that these months I was too busy to find time for self to write here and share with you on happening in my life.
My love came down in the month of Sept last year and can you image this time we had approximately four months of togetherness. Time few like an eagle in the sky which came back now after he left for sailing across the ocean again.
I shall write more about our meeting in the next post.
Until then bye…