Chudel (Witch)..!!!!

Chudel many people think that this souls are wicked and always does bad for people around. But has anybody thought about what do they feel, when they are being prejudice of doing something which may be they haven’t done ever.

I remember some tales that I had seen on TV serials and even some stories read in the book regarding Chudel’s. I remember this with dwindle memory but yes some were concentrating on the worst side of their stories. It was even said that if you are distill from heart and want to flourish in your life, you should go and bring a hair of either of these witches and keep it beneath you and doing such, these chudel will do anything and everything that you ask her to do and fulfill all your dreams.

But has anyone even thought about what will be the repercussion of this entire episode if one would have done it?

There are people even doing witchkraft. I mean if such activity is supposed to be named then why as witchkraft only?? Anyway so far I am never being successful in finding an answer to it.

 

On the other side; if ever such creatures exists, how they must be feeling about we human-being thinking about them such? I know the irony will be something else, but this is what it is.

I also remember serials I used  to watch like ‘Chandrakanta’ ‘Alif Laila’ and so on and so forth. They always picturized some good soul and some bad soul. Like in Alif Laila those stories that Laila spoke about used to also speak about some bad soul attacking the good soul and finally the good soul used to win. But, what I feel is what makes someone good or bad? I mean we used to enjoy the show and also curse ogre-the bad soul in the serial but is that the ogre was an actual ogre?

At times these words Chudel are also spoken as a bad word; and the heightest misery is; that now that we have a song with the title as ‘Ja Chudel Ja’. I mean its very annoying and embarrassing that we entertain such songs, but as the world is modernizing so is the acceptance increasing!! Can’t help out….but I personally do not support such actions..!!

CHUDEL…………THE WICHES…!!!!

Resolutions for the next Financial Year………Back to old times..!!!

Yes, I want to have a resolution for my financial year. I know I am a bit late, no actually too late. But as it is rightly said; ‘better late than never’.

All these days; I am falling short of money. Initially it was every end of the month my bank balance used to be may be in only 3 digits; and now it is in the mid of the month itself.

Honeslty, I don’t have a concert bank account only. I started my career with a bank account in ‘City Bank’ later with ‘ICICI Bank’ and then HSBC, my graph for the bank’s to have an account with were growing upwards and suddenly now with a co-operative bank account.

Do you know something; gone are the days, when I used to carry an ATM card and used to withdrew cash from the ATM machine and swap my card at every purchase.

Offlet I am back to the old days; where I stand in a queue for more than half an hour to withdraw my own money. Give verifications checks for my signature if at times there is a discrepancy. With this I remember that I have different signature at different times. With the modernization of times; we have stopped signing everytime that we are in a transaction and so am I. Isn’t it ? Now back to old  times.

My financial resolution is that I will spend less and save more this year ahead. But trust me although I am making this resolution for myself, I wonder for how long will I be able to follow.!!

May be, will continue withdrawing my money from the bank in the same fashion where atleast I will gain the ethics of signing and the control over my spending.

Now when I enter a shop, I carry cash along and I have the  limitations on my spending. In those initial days around 6 months back it was very difficult but now I guess the idiosyncrasy is changing……!

Indeed a MEMORABLE DAY TODAY!!!

It was something exceptional today.  First of all I rose up late say around 09:30 hour; inspite of this did not have a proper sleep. Why? Because now a day’s my mind is not stable and does a lot of wandering.  Although I don’t have anything concert to think or worry about in these recent time but still.

Later I came online to surf, the only reason for doing this was to put my mind in place so that can do something fruitful or may be have a good start for the day.  Then I thought of dressing up to go to the college, do you know something?? As everyone who knows me; knows it well that; nothing has/ have happened smoothly in my life. I dressed up about an hour before thinking that my college would be at 15:45 hrs; but my mother as she observes me every Saturday the time that  I leave the house made me realize that I and doing something different this day. For some time my mind just stopped working. Was confused!! So I phoned up my friend asking for the lecture’s timing and understood that the college will be at 14:45 hours.

Looking at time; I relaxed my mind that was in a hurry to leave for college; but as I was ready an hour before, in these leisure juncture I went through all my certificates that I had won during my academic’s and also through all my mark-sheets.

I felt touched and spent almost half an hour going through all these and saw how my graph went all through my school and college life. I felt as if the roof has fallen down and also my feet lost the ground!!

I couldn’t believe my eyes that I had scored 92% and had stood 1^st in the class at some point in time and now where do I stand?? What am I doing?? Am I justifying my studies now?? And the only answer that I received from my conscious is a ‘clear NO’.

I feel that I should stand up for myself and do something concert in these remaining 2yrs of my Master’s degree; but then how should I go about it? Have no clear roads but yes the determination is very strong and hoping for the best!

Later when I received my friend’s phone call; I left my house at 16:00hrs thinking that I will be able to make up for the college around 16:45^th hr as the distance to travel from my house to college is about half hour.

When I went to the auto stand; I couldn’t find even a single auto driver ready to drop me at the railway station; it was bizarre!! On the top of it; it started raining like cats and dogs..!! The breeze was at its swing and was blowing my hair from left to right and vice-versa. My umbrella that I was holding was shaking because of the breeze; it was the loveliest and also the most horrible juncture of my life where I could enjoy my lovely rainfall but also was late for college. Somehow managed to get an auto for station and then got stucked in the huge traffic. Well, finally reached station in about half an hour and it was already 17:00 hrs. Luckily got the train on time and later journey was pleasant.

The other surprising thing was that although it was raining heavily in Vasai there wasn’t even a drop at Mira road where my college is located.

Had to speak about a MEMORABLE MOMENT as mentioned in my earlier post; I had prepared somebody else’s memorable moment’s script. Somehow my conscious was against me; as I knew that I would be lying to my own conscious if I say that; and later at last minute changed my mind and spoke about the incident which has occurred on 11^th June 2000 at about  19:15 hrs. It was the day when I lost my father and I was the first person to witness that dark day of our family’s life……….!!!

On returning from college when I landed again in Vasai; could see that the situation is worse than the evening before. And so decided to walk down the street; had a good walk of half an hour.

While walking I had a pedestrian who was just few steps ahead of me. As you must aware that we do not have a pavement in Vasai East to walk down the street and so we take the safest mode of transport the auto rickshaw. And today unfortunately this very option was missing. After walking a distance; we found a man who was in his rabbit like white car as if waiting for us (both pedestrian) on the road to give us a lift till home.  I felt suspicious and did not get into the car; and you wouldn’t image though this man who was walking ahead of me got into the car; this white car didn’t pass through me…………………..ohh ghost!! Does this mean that the car driver was a kidnapper?? OR does it mean that he lead the person to the wrong route?? I had no gusts to turn around and check as the road ahead was lonely, scary and difficult for a lady to walk alone. I still walked down the street with full volume on my cell phone’s radio. And finally managed to reach home safely…..

This is the story from 9:30 hrs to 22:00 hrs today……………!!!

Uffffffffffffffff………………..!!!!!!!

Finally on my toes to go………….

After such a long contemplation over my thoughts again and again I couldn’t come up with anything that I can speak about; for instance thought to speak about my life but then thought it would be weird to discuss personal in the forum. Later thought to speak about my boyfriend (would be husband), then again something inside ME; stopped me in doing it so because again thought that after such a long misery now my love life is getting stabilized and it would be really bad on my part  to risk it again.

Yesterday we had our Monthly Team meeting in the office, and this time it was different ;where I belong to Maven’s group; okay the meaning of this word is quiet interesting would like to share about it. My colleague Anshuman searched this word. The meaning of this word is ‘’ One who understands everyone, based on an accumulation of knowledge, and is master in ones knowledge’’.

Okay our team had the activity of arranging the POT LUNCH which went out to be SUPERB!!

Later I took suggestion from my other colleague Muddy who told me about this below incident. I modified it and finally will speak this today…….hope to get my 5 out of 5 marks today……….Lets see……….

Although somebody else’s memorable moment but yet TODAY WILL BE MEMORABLE MOMENT FOR ME….where I will be speaking someone else’s memorable moment…………………..

Read the below………………………………

Memorable Moment

I would like to speak of an incident which occurred when I was in STD 8^th, when I along with 2 of my friends had been to Panchgani to spend summer vacation. 

In the mid of the dried meadows of grass there is a hill and we planned to go there to enjoy a bonfire.  We took our bicycles and started our journey to the hill top. When we landed there; we gathered some lofts of woods and finally were ready to lit the fire.  We were all in glorious mood of life!!

It was a breezy evening; and breeze was blowing as if this will lift us up in the sky and throw us on the ground onto our noses. But as we were in the early teenage with warm blood we ignored the signals of nature.

 While lighting the fire, accidently the match stick flew with the wild breeze that was surrounding us and had wrapped us in it; and it flew down the mountain on the dried grass that was spread and lit a small fire there.  Fright filled our tummies and without wasting any time we took our bicycle’s and drew down the stiff narrow valley in couple of seconds.

Later when we dared to turn around and see; we 3 of us were zapped to see the picturesque; it was horrifying  and bizarre as it looked like burning furnace and fire had spread like a wild horse covering the mountain in his arms….!!!

On a rainy day

On a rainy day

With lots to say

Want to be loud and clear

For the one who is not near.

This twinkling stars

Are way afar

Still close to sight

And gives delight

My love my life

When can I see?

Your sweet cute face

Which I can gaze!

Your gestures I miss

Feel like to kiss

But you can’t hear

As you are near…………..but not so near!!!

Deep in my heart

I am very sad

Although strong

But it feels like a throne

I can sense no joy

Without you I am incomplete

Without you my love

My heart just bleeds!

Please come back soon

I want to be with you one

Missing you a lot

This is straight from my heart….!!

Memorable moment to be spoken at college…….confused with what to speak

Since such a long time, I am thinking what to be written.

My college professor Mr. Jose, he teaches us Effective Communication has asked us to speak for 90 secs on a memorable moment.

Well as I write a lot over here, but my memory is falling short for remembering such memorable moment in my life…Guess there are many..

1)      May be the time that I am born (my birthday) where may be I was not in my concious but yet it is a memorable moment. This reminds me of the day which is coming near.My birthday is arriving. I become so happy and delighted.

2)      Secondly I remember the day when I have won 1^st prize in elocution competition in the college when I was least expecting it. Trust me the provenance of my data for the elocution was from the newspapers, some internet article and from the text book and the topic was on Power Consumption and the Scarcity of Power Supply.

3)      Third that I remember is  the day when I got my first job, okay though it wasn’t the first job and I was selected in several companies earlier. The very first was to sell the ABN Amro Swap card machine. I went for 2 days and left it, later was trapped in the marketing job with an NGO on behalf of CRY. Well I could manage to complete only around 15 days and I left and finally I got into my first organization where I lasted for about 11 months. This journey on those initial days is memorable and though how hard I try I will not be able to forget.

4)      Then I also remember the first time I saw my boyfriend in the office. He was looking so cute and handsome. The reason to describe him as cute and handsome is because he looks so innocent and just a darling. I remember it was 22^nd Oct.

5)      Then may be the time when we first met as a couple on my last birthday.

6)      My job at Orange where I am working now, after such a long waiting for a new job since Nov 10 got this job on 18^th Jan 11.

7)      The time when my love came back from his contract this year.

8)      And also the time when he left for another contract this  April bill run.

9)      Also the day when I got the news that his notes are received from Symbosis which was an achievment for him as well as for me.

10)  And the last when I received news from Narotham Morarji that finally the study material has come for him after a long waiting of 3 months.

The list is not exhaustive but I will end up with these 10. Actually too many memorable moments but really confused which one should I speak about. And I have only 90 SECS  to do the same………………..

Plans, plans and plans…………..

Invariably every one of us makes plans and also strives to execute it. Although it is an individual, a social group, a formal group, a local authority and on the macro level the Government’s plan. But, the question that arises in my mind occasionally is; is it implied or executed in real and not just in an imagination??

 I have come up with these is not to criticize anyone of us (self included) but to share with you certain plans which I have witnessed but never implemented or executed.

To name few of my personal plans;

1)      My further studies, although started but still many plans are in pipeline.

2)      Huge bank balance so that I can have a free mind rest of my life.

3)       My marriage.

4)      Reconciliation with my Would-be in-laws.

Well don’t want to emphasize more on those thin lines of my life, but would want to discuss about the most venerable plan which has never been executed so far as per my knowledge.

OUR COLLEGE PICNIC…..ooppss many call it as College outing !!!!

It’s been exact one year of our college and we have stepped on to the 2^nd year of our degree namely 3^rd Semester. And all these while there have been a lot of plans which has come up.

I remember we were planning to go for a night-out New Year Day party. We assembled as a huge flock just outside our college cornering at entrance gate, all decided and enthusiast, ardently absorbed with lot of plans and ideas and in the verge of getting up and entering the city of pleasure – The nightout Party on 31^st Dec. Well, lot of discussions were on and the place was about to be decided. But really am clueless of the outcome of it.

Yes, you guessed it right!!! Nothing, absolutely nothing after that juncture, everyone got so busy in their daily schedule of life that no one had the time to invest and devout for the group that is long waiting for something such. The bonding is required, definitely required.

We are all working professional who come together only on weekends and so many must be left out like loose ends of a woolen ball, who really needs to be tied back and should be made to feel as one, one family.

Though everyone was relying on another to form a concert plan, nothing came up at the end of it.

This isn’t it, there were couple of plans following suit and all drained out as time flew.

Nevertheless this is not the end, but it gives us a lesson, that though how big the group be or how small the plan be. Each one of us should shoulder responsibility equally to get the final conclusion.

If individual plans then to grade the most prioritize once and subsequently others should follow.

In any case I love planning…………….because ultimately it leaves me with a hope of looking forward for the next day to come……….!!!!!!!!!

Please note : The above is dedicated to Mihir Iyer, who inspired me in writing this article. 

Corruption

Note : Had seen this play at Bandstand on 26th March 2011, which was organized in memory of Dandi March. I have put it down as much as I remember and somewhat modified to give a spicy effect. Here it goes..........

Characters in the skit

Youngest Brother – Bharat (Lead role) – Representing India

 Middle Brother – Maniya (Government Employee)

Eldest Brother – Raj (Politician)

Late Father’s Lawyer – Anil

Few neigbhours ---  (Names not specific)

Script

Bharat is relaxing in his bedroom early morning he visualizing a dream again as usual and becomes restless. In his dream he could hear his brothers speaking to eachother…….

Raj – “Maniya kaat de sale ko.. !!!”

Maniya – ‘Bhaiya gale se kaatu ki pait me dalu ?? Aaisa karta hu sale ka gale he kaat deta hu…..aawaz bhi nahi nikalegi saleki.. !!!’

And then they both burst out laughing loud..

The siuation is very terrific, as Bharat feels insecured ; he is sensing that his brothers are revengeful and greedy. He knows that after his father’s death when the lawyer said that his father has made him the nominee for all  the property that they hold and have not left anything on those brother’s name they have become revengeful.

During all these mishaps Bharat is becoming insane; the thought of his brother planning to kill him is driving him crazy and slowly and steadily he is becoming insane.

And as soon as he opens his eyes he could see Maya, right in front of his eyes.

Bharat – ‘Maya !! Maya!! Tum kaha chali gayi thi?? Mein tumhara kab se intazaar kar raha tha!! Maya mujhe bahut daar lag raha hia Maya, please kuch to bolo please…..’

Maya – (Questioning)Tumhe yeh kya ho gaya hai Bharat, tum aaise kaise sooch sakte ho ?? Tum apne Bhaiyoo pe shak kar rahe ho, jo tum se itna pyaar karte hai ?? Kyu Bharat kyu ???

(Then with a mild sound) Bharat vo tumhare bhai hai, vo tumse bahut pyaar karte hai !!

Ve tumhare hai, tum yeh kab samajoge….ab shaat ho jayaoo Bharat….dekho vo aa rahe hai……..

Bharat turns around to see them and suddenly Maya vanishes…

   

Till then his brother walks in the dinning room to take break fast…it is early morning and both his brother are rushing for work……

Maniya – (Calling out) Bhaiya, Bharat bhaiya…kaha ho ?? Chalo breatfast kar lo bhaiya….

Till that juncture even Raj the eldest brother walks in the dinning room….

Raj – Maniya chalo breakfast karte hai……Bharat kaha hai..?? Aur vo kaisa hai ??

Bharat  Also comes at the dinning table and sits besides them for breakfast…though he is having his breakfast still his mind is busy comtemplating  the same dream that he keeps on visualizing every second hours about brothers wanting to kill him, he is still restless….at the same time…

Maniya – Bharat bhaiya aap ne apne davaiya to khale na?? Agar nahi kai hai to kalo..

Both the brothers are very concerned about his brother Bharat and his health/…they really don’t know how to make Bharat understand that it doesn’t matter to them who holds the property it is just that they want their brother to be in a good health..

They both leave for office..

Here Bharat missing out taking medicine and he gets he attack…he holds the knife in his hand, and trying to kill himself, he is totally mad and he doesn’t know what to be done….he is becoming crazy and crazy day by day…….these medicines are not at all helping him to get cured……..althought having it regularly..

At the same time he again could see Maya….

Maya – (Calls out loudly) Bharat tum ye kya kar rahe ho ?? Tum yeh kuch maat karo Bharat……tumhari zindagi bahut kimti hai….

Bharat – Nahi Maya, yeh har din  thode thode marne se accha hai ki mein ek dum mar jau.

Maya –(Again shouts loud as she doesnt want Bharat to take this step) Nahi Bharat nahi tum rukh jao yeh mat karna…

At the time she is shouting both the brothers enter the house in the evening as always….

Maniya – Bharat Bhaiya (With a pleasing sound) kaha ho dekho meine aap ke liye kya laya hu, ice-cream….kaha ho

Raj  - Maniya dekho yehi apne bedroom me hoga…

They both enter the bedroom together where they could see him holding a knife in his hand…

They are shit scared and do not know what to be done….

They have a tiff where they try to take the knife from Bharat….and finally they manage too…

Maniya – Bharat Bhaiya hum aapke bhai hai….hum bhala aapko kyu maarenge…???

Aap ne apni davayiya kahi kya ??

Bharat – (In anger, confusion and restlesssness Just shook his head saying) NO

Maniya gives Bharat Medicines  meanwhile the lawyer comes whom Raj had called up to come home

Raj – Arre aayiye aayiye aap ka hi intazaar kar rahe the

Anil – acchanak se mujhe kyu yaad kiya

Raj – Vahi kaam kar ne jo hum papa ke antim sanskar ke din hum baate kar rahe the

Anil – haan vo saare documents to mein apne saath he lekar  rehta hu taki ko na dekh…

(Both of them gives a very cruel smile)

Ral – Accha layiye hum ne vo kaam to kar liya hai…ab sirf…………..

(Anil gives documents where Raj takes signature of Bharat ….Bharat signs as he is not in his senses as he already had medicine)

Anil – Chalo mein ab chalta hu, apka kaam ho gaya…

Maniya takes Bharat to rest in his bedroom, and he is asleep..

Now both his brothers are sitting on to the sofa………..and here their color changes…

Now their actual conversation starts…

Maniya comes closure to Bharat takes the same knife and the same diagloue goes on as Bharat visualzes…………..

Raj – “Maniya kaat de sale ko.. !!!”

Maniya – ‘Bhaiya gale se kaatu ki pait me dalu ?? Aaisa karta hu sale ka gale he kaat deta hu…..aawaz bhi nahi nikalegi saleki.. !!!’

And then they both burst out laughing loud..

Moral and Message of the story : Corruption starts from home, we all say that corruption is taking its toll on us……and the country, but what do we do……our corruption starts from home, we all are corrupt in some or the other way; so lets join hands together to uproot corruption and keep out country clean…….!!!!

My Collapsible dream

Had it been like a soft surface

I would have made a 100%

Had it been bright light

I would have jumped with great joy

Had it been a wide road

I would have walked with hands fold

Had it been a roof top high

I would have carried a rope and abseiled !

But,

All that I feel and do are futile

Because my efforts are not worthwhile

All that I have become is an alternate angle

Where there is no place to escape and no place to entangle.

My dream is Collapsible.!!!